She's Gone: A Prayer

This is my Las Vegas story.

I received the email.

I made the call.

They told me.

I couldn't believe it.

Is this a trick?

I'm in so much pain.

Agony.

Why lord, why lord are you so cruel?

Why do you take away everyone and everything from my family and me?

Why do you have to make me into a modern job?

I'm in so much pain.

Agony.

You took away my dignity.

My livelihood.

My business.

My self-respect.

My profession.

I didn't mind this lord since i had to learn so many lessons.

But, you didn't have to take away my family!

You didn't have to take her!

She was so young. she had so much potential. she was beautiful.

I'm in so much pain.

Agony.

May be i shouldn't have come to this cursed city.

May be you were trying to tell me this.

Las vegas.

A place of broken dreams.

Broken spirits.

Death.

Sin.

Nonsense.

I'm in so much pain.

Agony.

May be if i didn't move to las vegas, she would still be here.

I would have told her that she was, and still is, love.

I would have told her that she had a great mind.

She should get her phd and become a philosopher.

She would have learned about web dubois, henry louis gates, marcus garvey, nietzsche, jung, freud.

She could have become one of the greatest thinkers of modern, our times.

Now she's gone.

She passed away.

Joining my family's beloved ancestors in the place of eternal rest.

I'm in so much pain.

Agony.

Yes, lord.

I shouldn't have moved to this cursed city.

It brought me.

My family.

My friends.

My loved ones.

So, so much pain.

I think this city of false hopes brings curses on newcomers.

It takes, takes away all from people who have dreams.

The slots.

Roulette tables.

Poker Video Games.

Take away our money, spirits, loves, lives.

May be lord this is why las vegas is called “sin city.”

After all sin means an action that is done without love.

A soulless city it is.

But, i'm angry, i'm grieving lord.

I'm in so much pain.

Agony.

Lord, i can't blame you.

You've already warned us.

Since adam and eve broke your covenant because of their primal disobedience.

We, as humans, were cursed until the time of our deliverance.

Our first mother and father lack faith in you.

They wanted all of from you.

They wanted to become gods.

So, our earthly mission is to suffer.

Lord, i have to blame someone or something.

Lord, i'll blame my pain, my cousin death on my adopted sodom and gomoroh.

After all lord, the children of adam and eve created sin city, the place of excess.

And, as your son mentioned that the payment of sin is death, physical and spiritual.

So, i blame my pain, i blame the death of my sister-cousin on las vegas.

My horrible decisions.

My bad luck.

I'm in so much pain.

Agony.

This is my Las Vegas story.

THIS IS A TRIBUTE TO MY BELOVED SISTER-COUSIN.